No Longer at War with Our Bodies

This blog is for anyone who has ever felt like they are at war with their bodies.

For almost my entire life I can remember fighting depression, anxiety, eating disorders, drug addictions, and physical illnesses.

I have spent more hours than I care to recount in doctors offices, in hospitals, at urgent care, with naturopaths, and with therapists.

My life adventures and physical body took me back to the doctors and to therapy in November.

Why?

Because my emotions went whacky and I started gaining weight.

My emotions first started going out of whack in November from PTSD but also because, little did I know at the time, my body was changing.

So come January I really noticed my body didn't feel like myself, I was tired, I was no longer menstruating and I was gaining weight, quickly, kind of like the Titanic taking on water.

So what did I do?

I began the rat race with doctors offices. First to my primary care doctor who was flabbergasted I wasn't pregnant, and when I wasn't pregnant and didn't have a thyroid issues she tried to increase my anti-depressants and send me on my way.

Next I went to a naturopath she tried to convince me that I was fine, just stressed and was anorexic. I told her I was tired all the time and I wasn't hungry but I kept gaining weight. She told I had starved myself for so long I no longer felt hunger. For her benefit I have struggled with eating disorders and the idea of gaining weight but I swore up and down this wasn't my eating disorder this time, but I was entirely freaked out I was gaining weight. She didn't believe me, gave me an eating plan and sent me on my way.

 I tried that but I just still didn't feel better. My body felt like a foreign invader to me.

Finally, yesterday, I went to a new Gynecologist. As I explained my symptoms she promptly ran tests and told me I have Polycystic Ovary Syndrome (PCOS).

So umm, what does that me?

Unfortunately, a lot but luckily for me I have Type D, it is the least harsh form of PCOS that presents itself with not menstruating, higher levels of testosterone, and cysts on my ovaries.

The side effects of PCOS are though: acne, facial hair (which I am blessed to not have dealt with), obesity, and infertility.

To learn more about PCOS you can go online and there is a plethora of information.

So I won't concentrate on the ins and outs of PCOS and what it is. I am not a medical website.

Instead I am blog and I am creating this blog because I am DONE with being at war with my body. I am here to blog about my journey with finding health and peace within my own body. I am going to do my damn best to not take the hormones the doctors prescribed. I am looking for a holistic lifestyle, not one that stuffs me with medications and changes my core being.

So if you are tired at being at war with your body and tired of waking up never knowing how you are going to feel then join me in finding out how to make our bodies part of us again and not a foreign invader.